Jesus, take me with You.

Monday, July 30

Haha, due to the overwhelming demand (?) of a new post, I shall clear the cobwebs and clean up! :X

Anyway, many things came to my mind after attending Friday's Seminar with Pastor Sy Rogers. One thing kept ringing in my head was what Pastor Sy mentioned, that God's so big, so powerful, so mighty and all of us, are just creations by His Hands. And yet God chose His Son to died for us on the Cross and redeemed us all.

And what the tiny winy me, the 1 boy out of the whole 11 billion population in the world can do for Him then? Pastor Sy answered it : Loyalty.

All I can give to God is, not my finance, not my grades, not my doings, however, my loyalty counts it all. My loyalty that will see me through 80 years of my life and into eternity. My loyalty to stay faithful despite rising circumstances. Thats all I can truly give to my God, thats what only can touch Him and let Him know. Loyalty. My loyalty to the One and Only.

Many times I find myself on the verge of giving up. Stress mounts me up like a microbe in the Pacific Ocean. I seek solace in worship and praise and get myself up. But then, on the other hand, my God's handspan stretches from one end of the entire universe to the other. What's Pacific Ocean compared to Him man. And to think scientists thought the Sun was big...

Loyalty to my God reaps bountiful harvests. I give loyalty to my God and in return, He gives me strength to carry on no matter what happens. No one finds a more enduring, tested loyalty than in hearts of worshippers. Thats what I am. Thats who these people are, whose arms locked with mine into eternity. I worship this Man called Jesus. I worship this God, truer than all reality.

Loyalty. Loyalty. Loyalty. Man, this just keeps ringing in my head...

Sunday, July 22

Lead me to the Cross - Hillsongs

Saviour I come
Quiet my soul remember

Redemptions' hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You

O lead me
Lead me to the cross

You were as I
tempted and trialed
Human

The word became flesh
bore my sin and death
Now You're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Rid me of myself, I belong to You, Jesus.

Thursday, July 12

In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat, a song on her lips
Someday she'lll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
And fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray

," I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation, through it, calls to the people
Who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat, a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
And fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray

," I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call You Savior
Not close enough to call You God
So I sit and think of words I can mention
To show my devotion

I want to fall in love with You

My heart beats for You...

Love Song For A Saviour - Jars of Clay

Sometimes songs just mean everything I want to say. It takes me away to a point whereby I just wanna drop everything and tune into the presence of God. Everything just falls off by itself and His sweet presence comes.

I want to fall in love with You.

Monday, July 9

And I'm good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don't want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I'm sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what is my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don't make me face up to this

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let You down
And I don't want to deal with that

And I'm good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

It just hit me this is more then just a set back
And when You spelled it out, well, I guess I didn't get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn't turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by I don't want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I'm sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

[chorus]

And I spent all last night
Tearing down every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I'm so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from You
I stopped right there to catch my beath
There Your words they caught my ears
You said 'I miss you son. Come home'
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love You felt for me was mine
The love I'd wished for all the this time
And when the doors were closed I heard 'No I told you so'
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, oh God I needed You
God all this time I needed You, I needed You

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what is my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Cause I know that I let You down
And I don't want to deal with that

Relient K - I So Hate Consequences.

Kind of so... describes me now.
Thanks to domlim for da song tho.

Monday, July 2

I dont care what they say about me,
its alright, its alright.

I dont care what they think about me,
they'll get it one day.

Cause I love You, I'll follow You,
You are my, my life.

I dont care about you. For if I did, I would have broken you into pieces long time ago. Devils, you dont stand a chance against me. Look me in the eye, and fear. For inside, stares the power of God.

b r e a k i n g b a r r i e r s,
chunkit.

Sunday, July 1

Passion.

I've been facing this word pretty much nowadays. In school we're doing Passion Portfolio, and in church we're just going through this season of worship and closeness to God. And it kinda just makes me wanna stick longer to God nowdays. I wanna stick to God like ice cream to the stick. Haha. Theres this huge desire to worship forever man, a desire for service to never ever end and always looking out for a trickle of hope to be able to escape from home. Perhaps I should runaway from home though. o.O

Had a session of praise, worship and prayer on Saturday and it really shook me up. Hosanna.. Its been totally powerful and everything's different. Just so different. So super different. Like REALLY different. -.-

Just came home from service, and back from watchin Freedom Writers. Pretty much inspiring. But the highlight of the day, besides service, was the ride back home. When the others left at Yishun, only Dawei (D-zone) and I was on the train. On the way to sembawang, a detestable place, we talked about Dawei's ministry - Children's Church. He shared with me how amazing these children are, in everyway. Fantastic children, even better than youths at times.

Then I remember seeing them worship at RedRain, and I was really blown away. The purity of their faith and the desire of wanting more of God is really undescribable. Far beyond description, it was simply 'wow..' Theres passion in it. Theres love in it. Theres a true connection with them and God. I remember vividly that there was this boy, about Primary 3-5, just talking, worshipping and praying to God like a true prayer warrior, raising his hands uber high to God, surrendering his all in his private moment with his King. Just believing, and loving God so much...

Following that, I saw some youths laughing at his radicalism, standing there, looking 'cool' and acting 'big'.

Dawei shared with me that one has to humble himself, and remember where he came from, his beginnings. From a child in primary school, to a teen in secondary school, to a young adult in JC/Poly, to a full-fledged working adult.

Always remember who you are, at each stage of your life.

People look down on youths, me and you, because they forget how a child feels deep down. They forget that they, once upon a time, were youths too. Once was looking for a purpose in life, looking for something to fulfil... Well, only God fills that!

Isnt it the root of all problems? Neglected children, broken familes, generation gap... so much more. A world so much perversed. Children everywhere, dying, starving. I aint naggy, Im stating the truth. :)

Dawei's passion for children taught me to reflect on myself too. And perhaps you should too, reflect.

Mark 10:14

When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these

The faith and passion of a child surpasses all logic. Familiar?

Pastor's 10th Anniversary : PASSION.