Jesus, take me with You.

3 years later. and im still in your face. whaddaya gonna do?

Saturday, June 27

you know what?

continue to batter me.
continue to beat me up.
im waiting.
waiting for your trash to end.

continue to put me down,
just do it.
kick the crap out of me.

you know what?

you're such a weakling.
you just cant get the job done.
you're a piece of trash.
you're just a piece of crap.

im waiting,
still waiting.
is this your best?
hah, weak.
im.
still.
waiting.

you know what?

you're just wasting my time.
if you cant do it, then move away.
get someone better.
get a life.

you know what?

some people dont let go.
some people can hang by the cliff by one hand forever.
some people are amazing.
some people...
just.
cant.
die.

im your reason why some people's fired up this evening.

you know what?

piss off devil.
you're a piece of crap.
weak.
3 years later, im still in your face.

sound the alarm.

Monday, June 22

this sickness is getting bad man.
fever's coming on, and the cough wont go away.
wanted to get a doc, but its already late into the night,
tomorrow perhaps.

have got 6 out of 8 symptoms of H1N1.. haha...
lets hope they close down PJC soon. :D
whatever man, just get this away..
God, still need You.

really missing the feel of cold steel under my fingertips.
missing it badly.. so badly.
its funny how this gets deferred time and time again.
so funny its almost heartbreaking.
in anycase, its a love.
its not a mission anymore.
its a love.
its not a dream anymore.
break my heart again.

lets close this.
wallow in self-pity.
this is a labyrinth, and there is an exit.
its either you find it, or you're lost in it. forever.

gdnight.
have a good rest
while i lie awake with this.

who doesnt matter anymore.

Thursday, June 18

sometimes you wonder and you wonder hard.
life is not a bed of roses.
neither is it a bed of thorns.

sometimes the heart goes cold.
in a moment it burns so bright.

somethings you gotta know,
somethings you gotta catch.
but then sometimes,
only sometimes...
there's a line over everything.

its caps you, it caps me.
that makes everything a lil harder...

and..

a lil more... exciting.. (:

i know.

Monday, June 15

give me a lil more time.
i've got the sling... now let me choose the stones...
just a lil more time.

after all of this, i'll search the lion and the bear out.
then we'll talk again.

You kept silent.

under Your wing.

Friday, June 12

one strike of this match left.

'sometimes, it comes down to the very last moment'