Jesus, take me with You.

and words aren't enough.

Monday, November 24

woke up at 3.15pm today with half the day gone.
was really tired after Asia Conf. but it was really powerful.. real powerful. God moved and will move in an unimaginable scale and way. haha.. insulated to penetrate.. im changed.

had shaun over at 4pm and we cold-storaged for spaghetti ingredients. then went over to my house and cooked them up. we had mushrooms, cheesy sausages, tomatoes and alfredo sauce with us. and it was really funny having 2 men working in a kitchen. lucky suzana intervened before we blew ourselves up. hahaha
in the end, our alfredo tasted pretty weird because it was way too tomato-ish. but the spag was good itself. oh wells, we'll try at shaun's house next week. promise!

then we listened to the dota song and watched hilarious videos on youtube and had an awesome time learning the guit together. shaun shall pass the audition. (:
its always great to fellowship with leow..
its always great to fellowship with my generation.

determination counts. it so counts.
had another talk with Dom a few days back and really, im blessed to have him around.
God has a real reason why He placed me under Dom. wooooo! its just awesomic.

now, suddenly for a moment i was sad that i've already graduated, but im sure theres a greater reason why im this old this year. oh wells, we're in God's plan.
"as i work, my Father works."

lifes really good. excitement's slipping away and determination's seeping in.
seems like the hols are sitting in perfectly.
we're going to see changes and there'll be breakthroughs promised by God.
determination. determination. determination.
this, is lovely.

its 24th of November... warning! hols are ending...
use your time wisely!

and for those who are trying to grab my attention,
thanks for going the extra mile.
but you're really irritating,
because, im not interested (:

Worthy - Christian City Church

Could it be You're in control
Now I see I don't know it all
But if You stripped it all away
I'd still be able to say

You're my God
And none can compare You're the One
You gave us our breath
And in Your shadow I will wait
To hear Your voice and know Your way

Glory, all that has breath give Him glory
Lift up our God who is always
Beginning and end
You are

Let the earth sing
We lift up our hands and exalt Thee
Redeemer of all
You have mercy
Above all be glorified

Worthy,
You alone are worthy
You alone are Holy
You alone are God

siann, Nikki Fletcher is already married..
haha, kidding! shes just real good.
my wife's gotta be like her man.

ciao, have a faith-filled night..

afterthoughts.

Friday, November 21

its 2.04am on friday.

theres much to say, but i dont wanna say much.
just....

to live is Christ, to die is gain.
today, you determine your own destiny.

you can glare at me.

Tuesday, November 18

had 2 long talks with Dom a few days back and i found my point of view changed and turned.
many things that used to seemed to so all gradually changed during the past few days.
we touched on the subject of worldliness.
and yes, i hate worldliness. i do i do and i do.
i so do.

dont ever come to me, and tell me you're two-timing my God with the world.
because now, i detest your spirit.
if you want to serve, then serve with all your heart, mind and soul.
dont take my God for granted, and serve because everyone else around you's doing so.
neither do you serve because you cant find a better way to burn your time.
if you're hanging on because you need an insurance and gurantee to heaven, then piss off to suntec. they've got what u need.

i hate it when someone takes granted of anything, anyone, and much more my God. and i hate it too, when someone pushes Him away..
He deserves much much more.. remember Calvalry?
He has His unconditional love, but i dont have mine.
please, let your spirit die.
when you start to indulge in this world, you know something's wrong. solve it.

and yes, im really angry.
yet so sorry. im so, so sorry.
im sorry, because im radical.

here is a devotional from Homeword written by Kelly McFadden. and here it goes:

Galations 1:10 (NIV)
Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

It seemed like any other recess in eighth grade. A group of us were all outside playing when it happened. I overheard a boy tell one of my friends that he didn’t like me. I was devastated. Now, this wasn’t someone I particularly cared for either, but the words stung all the same. Someone didn’t like me. To be honest, that had never occurred to me before. I went home that afternoon wounded and working to figure out what I could do differently.

I learned a very important lesson that day: No matter what you do, you will never be liked by everyone. Even more important is the lesson I learned later: The most important opinion to hear is God’s voice, not the voice of people. If you live your life trying to please everyone, you will only fail. Approval-seeking from others will only serve to get you in trouble. We must focus on what God sees in us and desires for us. That will lead to a life well-lived.

So what does God want from us? He wants us to live a life that is pleasing to Him and set apart. He wants us to love our neighbors, love ourselves and have an attitude of service to all around us. He wants us to recognize that we are no better than anyone else. We are equal in His eyes. He wants us to rest in His hope and strength. And more than anything, He wants us to know, that even when we fall short of His standards, He loves us unconditionally.

In all of us, there is a little girl or boy wanting to be liked. And that is not bad in itself. The danger comes when we make those opinions count more than what God thinks. God views us the same each and every day. We are His beloved creations, made in His image. There is nothing that can separate us from His love.

there you go and ciao.
stay warm and stay radical, my loves.

Fly.

Wednesday, November 12

hola people!

its lovely. did my chem paper (last paper!) this morning. mupped it, but im cool. ;)
and its time to give my all for my All!
cant wait to go on full force... its ages and eons ago that im somewhere near this.
i've been waiting for this time for way too long yet now its here, it feels numb. the excitement had already went past its meter. seems like whatever that has happened is settling itself into place for this moment.
its like everything's in the right place, everything's perfect, everything's waiting for us.. at a standstill, waiting for us to start running...

so in this moment, determination counts. it counts so, so much. theres much to do, and much time to do so. so let me grab this... and i will never, never let this go away. and i cant wait to grow exponentially again, cant wait to breakthrough again. both spiritually and physically.

did some basketballing at changkat with some peeps from F1 CEG today, along with Ah-Benedict. was awesome. had much fun, and in the spirit, im sure many of us feel that something today's changed. great job guys... (:

and yes baby! theres so much events lined up.. theres STRIKE-IT.... TGIO(*smirks*)... CANDY WEEKEND.... 80'S WEEKEND..... just simply super awesomic...
last and really the least, theres a cat high prom night tmr @ Marina Mandarin.. will be getting pics up tho. i bet its gonna be hilarious with some guys wearing sch uni.. (:

ciao guys.
im loving my life, just try not to be that jealous.
and also, please start preparing for your O's man.
(;

untitled.

Sunday, November 9

watched HSM 3 with Shaun last night at sunplaza.
hahahha.. its kinda weird having 2 guys watching sucha show late at night, but oh wells. we dint wanna watch quantum of solace, and there were less than 13 people watchin HSM.. really weird..
and throughout the movie we were guessing when will the people start singing again, which was really hilarious... the popcorn lady dint hear us and so the popcorn wasnt sweet. rargh! but anyway the movie's good. haha.
then we had supper! roti prata and beef horfun.. had a good time fellowshippin with him.

and back to the present!
been studying physick mcqs, but have been feeling mupped lately.
gonna work something out these few days man!
and F10's gonna breakthrough! soon soon... lurve-ly.

have been chillin to the mjq for quite awhile.
and it reminds me of 'i've got soul but im not a soldier!'
ciao.. cya soon. real soon. (:

shaun leow shuai ge

Saturday, November 8

hi everybody. im on the phone with ah shaun. i told him i needed a post title and he has kindly provided it for me (:
and now he's singing some weird chinese song which dont really sound like chinese.. and he's spammin some pizza receipe on our msn convo..

We're gonna bring an anthem of love. says:
Smoked Turkey Bacon, Beef Pepperoni, Mushrooms, Fresh Tomatoes & Onions

it kinda... makes no sense.

anyway, it is now... 1.42am!
and im feeling crazy...
lit exam was good, should get what i have in mind ;)

and yes, service was awesomic!
presence of God was really thick.. it was gaining ground on new levels.
we brokethrough over Nick Vujicic's services, and service just now was like consolidating everything..
Pst Kong was great and he shared really faith-filled stuff. its just what i need from now til year 2009... (:
breaking hearts, breaking thru. yeah baby.
just had a pleasant time with the F1 guys together with some of the F23 pplsb.. had supper at macs before headin home!

and now shaun's talking about dota... "3 butters are crazy"..

and recently lifes been really funny.
i just gotta blog this, this is awesomely hilarious, and i shall type in proper english:

A few days back, I was on the train back home and there was a middle-aged lady in a skirt who sat beside me. Across on the opposite seat, there sat a man - geeky, bespectacled, probably in his late 20s and single. *So this man was a 'cheeko-peh', and was trying to look up the lady's skirt.*

There and then, I got pretty irritated and angry, and I decided to make him stop his nonsense. So I leaned forward...

(imagine me sitting on a seat on the mrt and leaning forward like this guy)

and I glared at him. HAHAHA -- so it became pretty obvious to EVERYONE on the train that I was actually studying him. When he finally realized I caught him in the act, his cheeks reddened and his ears turned flaming red man.. He was blushing! Man I could have died from laughter just looking at his sheepish expressions...

At that point of time, I, being mischievious, really wanted to stand up, point and laugh at him in his face, and make the 'loser sign'.. and how awesome that would be. But the BEST OF ALL - this guy TRIED TO ACT THAT HE FELL ASLEEP. He closed his eyes and rested his head backwards on the glass window for several times and tried to look normal.. After awhile, he gave up trying to sleep and then began to try and avoid eye contact with me, and I, was looking at him in the eyes all the while. I could FEEL that he felt so so so awkward and so so so uneasy... HAHA, and the guy's actions really really looked dumb and stupid and I couldnt help but kind of chuckled at him. And the lady beside me thought I was wrong -.- oh wells, it was a good laugh anyway.. he's seriously hilarious. HAHA

side tracking:

shaun:
eh ck, slyd..

ck:
whats that? simi slyd?

shaun:
shaun leow yan dao.

man. shaun's crazy too.

yeah man, life's good.
gonna get so much better... because i've got 2 tiny puny papers left.
gotta aim for perfect scoreS for chem and phy paper ones! and yeah.. this coming holidays will be so awesome man.. cant wait for it to start.
aint gonna start working and plowing yet... gonna plan my steps now, and put em to use when the 12th comes.

all the best people.
work hard, play hard.
i've worked hard, and rest assured, im going to play really really hard. (:

ciao, God bless!

tasting the air at 2.01

Friday, November 7

its early morn, still studying for lit.. heres something for you.

from tkam - the definition of true courage:
'when you know you've been licked before you begin but you begin anyway, and you see through it no matter what'

seems like my plight! :D
but im loving it anyway. haha. meeting Shaun later for follow-up *cheeRS!*
its gonna be awwwwesomicccc...

nothing here stops a man.

oh yeah, and the air tastes wonderful ;)

Living Sacrifices.

Tuesday, November 4

what a rollercoaster ride these few days.
got my doors open. and He got His too. ;)
its awesomic.

searched for Jon.Doug on youtube and found & watched his sharing @ CHANGE on the heart of worship. then linked here and there and watched Josh Kelsey and his sharings. twas all good.. learnt quite abit. and JD's too cool man. hah.

Romans 12:1-2 (NIV)
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Worship is more than just the 20 minutes in church where you raise your hands and sing out. Worship is far more than what you can make the most out of the time when everyone's dwelling in God's presence.
Worship, is about 2 words - Thank You.

Greater is He! (:

Sunday, November 2

GOD, I LOVE YOU. I REALLY DO.

i'm sorry guys, i just gotta say this. hahah
anyway, my tagboard's got something wrong with it. i cant post!
so -- ciao everybody! thanks for everything and anything. lurves.

byes everybody, im goin back to...
s-t-a-r-d-e-e-i-n-g

battlin it out. ;)