everything dont seem to go my way.
everything's so faraway.
feel the distance.
feel the fear.
feel life sucked out.
feel the dread of living.
this is bad bad crap.


keep telling yourself to set things straight,
but thats another lie. its not gonna happen.
keep hoping for the better,
when you know the worst's yet to come.

you tell yourself to not worry and make yourself feel better,
when at that corner of your mind, you know its all just a big lie.
you know your world's gonna fall.


and they say they understand, they agree.
but if they dont feel it, how then can they understand?
you are not friends. you are sympathizin me. i dont need that.

i dont need someone to tell me its okay,
i just need someone to scream with.



everything is wrong.
wrong wrong wrong.
right from the start its all wrong.
so darn wrong.


im nearing my limit.



have a goodnight,
with angst and frustration.




wheres the light?!