its been a year since it all started.
some things, once lost, are never found again.
over time, i've lost some and gained some.
but of course, these things i've lost, are far far more precious to me than everything i've ever gained.
yet they will be so, so hard to get back because its not as easy as it is anymore.

its hard to accept how things turned out, but in one way or another, i've got to accept them.
grit my teeth and live life out.
its not easy without the people whom i onced called brothers, but if it has happen, i'll have to get through no matter how hard it will be.
i miss them, i miss how things were. i miss them all dearly.
somewhere along the way, i had to take a break. and during this break, i lost something so important, so vital, so unknowingly.
its a pity i cant seem to forget.

of course, these are all really beautiful memories. sparkling, lovely ones, forever with me.

but sometimes, we've just got to wake up to the nightmares.