yeah.
somehow, im proud i can struggle for good.
this thing is always hanging in there silently, but when bad times comes, it just emerges and take over.
im proud, really.
meanwhile, lets hope and pray.

nowadays, a crapload of people gets mistaken about me a crapload of times for a crapload of reasons.
its crap-laden and its crap. its total crap.
thank yq for his suggestions, thanks es for his advice.
argh, im just going crazy.

you are stupidity in action, stupidity in reality.
my goodness! argh!