haha, weeeeeeeee.
im loving C3 musikkkss, i love their style of music and the worship they bring.. its aaawesome
ahhaa, gonna post it up someday.
hehe. and im desperatel praying for an ipod, with video capabilities with 30 GB space. gogogo!

REDRAIN rocks. hahaa, i cant wait for them to be back next yr. met so many new friends
wohhhhhhh.. just loving praising God beside my brothers. so so so awesome

just prayed for Pastors, Dominic, church and F1, and i believe things are going to move real lot. theres going to be revival in Hwa Chong, Pasir Ris Sec, ACSI and many many others.. its going to an eye opener by God Himself.

God is here, yes, in me. sometimes, things get so so indescribable that i cant do anything about it. it isnt what i put down in words. its just there, if u feel it then its good, if u dont then thats it. simple as that but its complicated.

started when recently i've been relying on God too much, and i love it. i love the fact im powerless, weak, undone and broken and all i can do is to let God come into me and help me out.
i never want to come to a point whereby myself tries to work things out cause i know im far from God's standard.

see, i know there are many things i cant do on my own. i know i cant love people whom i dont love; i know i cant humble myself before certain people; i know i cant give my best for i seldom do; i know i cant be of God's standard. being human, its logically impossible to reach what God is like. to put it crudely, if dogs and cats cant reach His standard, i probably cant too. everything have their limits, i know mine.

2000 years ago, when my God was hung onto that cross, He died for my sins. and more than that, He died for my old man. today, i live because He is in me, because He died, and came to live in me. "Not I, but Christ" - this is what it means truely. i dont want to come to a point whereby i live my best to reach God's standard. i know i cant reach it, even if i give all my life trying to reach it.

simply put, i just want to let Jesus live in me. Christ in me is what i have. many times, i face problems in my life, like losing tempers, sinning along the way, parental objection, CCA, etc etc. and so many times i find myself back at square one: the harder i try to resist, the higher i climb, the higher i climb, the deeper i fall. its a rollercoaster ride, its never-ending, and i dont want my Christian to revolve around this - i know i have a better destiny than rollercoaster-ing around. you can try to resist, but end of the day, im pretty sure you'll fail.

today, i give up trying to resist, for i learnt its futile. its stupidity, and its time-wasting. God sets a standard so high up that no man can reach on his own, and its there for a reason. today, i let myself go to waste, and instead i daily pray that everything that happens - it isnt my business, but its God's.

i died when Jesus was crucified - "knowing this, that our old man was crucified with Him," Romans 6:6. i came to an understanding that today, what lives in me isnt truly me, im sick of living and have given up living and today it is not I, but Christ who lives in me. Come God, move, talk, and do work. Im just a mule, stubborn and with no knowledge, all i know is Your absence brings pain to me. Go Lord, work today..

"I have lived long enough; Im sick of living; now, Lord, will You please try?"