as if i lived 2 days out of a week only, this feels like tuesday night.
im home from AE weekend, twas good. i pledged, now im gonna make it come to past.

on the way home in dad's car, i tuned into my phone music. it was noisy.. granny mum and aunt were talking..
so i turned on the volume, sorta worshipped and talked to God on my inside. it was heartwarming, wuzzy fuzzy feeling. like those you get when people showers too much love on you. haha..

i laid my head back on the cushion, looked out the window and bared my heart to God and He just smiled and reassured. it was a good time.
that was probably the highlight of my week.
sometimes the littlest of things makes the brightest of my days. its what people do, or what i experience that can make my day.

funny enough, its also the littlest of things that makes a bad day for me. recently i've been hearing alot of things about people, hear what they do, what they've become, what they're up to, etc etc.. some makes my day - people like DOMLIM (haha, i know you're reading this.) because they're just awesome.. others become a burden and bothers my heart..

i see a thousand areas for us to work on.. but i see another thousand reasons why people wont listen.
some arent convicted, some brush convictions away. some arent up to the challenge, some others cant take it. some smoke their leaders bad, others go round the bush. there're others who cant see a reason to change, others just dont want to see it.

crap, these things bother me bad. what bothers me most is that these people want to grow badly, but unwilling to change.. there must be a point of compromisation with God and the world.

what you want in heaven is what you need to loose on earth.. treasures in heaven is sometimes determined by poverty on earth. people see it, want to grow, but unwilling to take this.. its crappy.. ahh well.

this week's so crazy. i cant seem to remember what happened on mon, tues, thurs and fri night.. everything's going so fast its been wiped off my memory. perhaps its because i was busy through the week, perhaps its because i averaged a 5 hours sleep on weekdays..

whatever it is, its not really doing good for me. i dint get a taste of this week.. i lost the essence, meaning and heart of the week. at least i've learnt to slow myself down in the weeks ahead to taste the week. it'll be cool.

there'll be discipleship with Psts tomorrow.. im looking forward to it. i'll be slowing my speeds down, and stop whizzing down the lanes. live life slowly, enjoy and work it. till then, goodnights and take care, while i enjoy my durians.

sunny: no way.. F10 will be on par with F1 in a month's time. just you watch (: haha, you have my word.
cheryl: no need to thank la! i help you, you help me. every thurs just set up tents for each other. hahah. it'll be cool.


All my life I searched for heaven,
my heart it longs for so much more.
Yeah.. I long for so much more.

have a blessed weekend. (: