2 nights ago, a question came into my mind as i lay in bed with the lights on.
it was out of the blue and it struck me with much intensity.
it brought me on to think more for 2009 and the plans i have.
it brought me on to think more for my life and people around me.


17's approaching in 3 months time but yet i feel stucked at a younger age.
i dont really like being a teen. haha. let me be a boy or be a man.
its kinda crappy stucked in between. its like having a body size in between Medium and Small. you dont fit in comfortably in either, you dont look good in either too.


Small too's small to fit in. Medium's too big for comfort.
i wish to live life as a Sec 2 again, but its all in the past.
i wish im living life as a Uni Stud, but thats a few more years down the road.
JC/Poly years are approaching. sure im excited, but im dreaded by the fact i've still got 2 - 3 more years of studying and to top it off, 2 years of NS.
its like having a pandan sponge cake with kaya icing on it. just... yucks.


i find myself a few decisions into adulthood. im clear about where im heading for in life, although its not crystal clear enough. its shady, but wipe a few years off and i'll be straight through into living as an adult. hope God brings me through.


in any case, i heard O'levels results will be out next week, if not the one after the next.
im not excited, really. im just pretty nervous, just like anyone else.


yup. thats all.
suddenly, i dont feel like blogging the rest of the post.
im just gonna leave this as it is.
now, im going to seek God.


tonight, im a 20% acting-matureand 80% wanting-God person.

i shall fit myself into the Medium sized shirt..
haha. catch yall soon.

gdnights and gdbye.